G. Harold Martin!

today was the bayside high school key club end of the year party
wow, i felt like i was in an another world the whole time ... nervous ... worried... excited ... full of happiness ...sad ... it was so great.

i never thought i would become a G. Harold Martin Fellower ... if thats how you call it.
i can tell that i'm not feeling that great because i'm typing with "....."s

sometimes people seriously don't know what to say ... i can be one of those people as well ...
but today was kind of OD ...

i heard something today on the way home from my mom and i don't know if it's true or not but all i know is that it made me put the beautiful collage anna jiang made me on the seat next to me. I just felt so ... i don't know, unhappy. and i'm not about to go snoop around and ask my mom more details about it or else she would know that it really means a lot to mean and i can't let her know that, yet. i don't know. i just don't know.
but the sad part is that it means a lot to me and now i can't stop thinking about it. it hurts.

today was really the perfect example of "everything happens for a reason." I mean, if Imran hadn't awarded me the Sandy ... then Jacoby would have awarded me the Sandy ... and who knows when or if i would ever receive the Martin. It's a really big deal to me because it's such a BIG award ...

i don't think i'm going to be online after my shower.

amy,out.